I meant to write this post yesterday, but didn't get a chance to do so.  I woke up yesterday morning in a panic.  I had another wedding nightmare that felt so real and was a total train wreck.

Chris' best man (who is getting married 2 weeks before we are) got delayed coming back from his honeymoon.  He & his new wife took a cruise, which they were late to get off of- causing them to miss their flight and get stuck in Miami or whatever.  So they were MIA at the wedding, which really sucked.  It couldn't happen for real though, since their honeymoon will be ending about a week before our wedding, so even if they do miss their flight they'll have almost a week to keep trying to get here haha.  So at least that can/will be avoided.

Then my sister decided to get married the day before us.  Like literally- September 21.  At the same place as us.  She also borrowed my veil.  So I woke up on the morning of my wedding and cleaned up her wedding by myself so I could use the same space for mine.

The venue wasn't the beach, but my effing apartment.  Like where I am currently sitting, typing this out.  It's a nice size apartment, but couldn't host 100 people & dancing.  Also, we didn't bother to clean it, so I was trying to get ready for my wedding while taking out the garbage, touching up the paint on the wall, and trying to sweep the porch.

Which was a futile attempt, because no one came.  I remember looking at the clock every couple minutes because my bridal party & family were nowhere to be found.  My photographer (who is scheduled to arrive at 9am) didn't show up.  I did my own makeup.  I was just all alone and had way too much to do.  The only person who did show up was the cake delivery guy and I was in the middle of juggling my makeup and taking out the trash and realized I was too stressed to tell him where to put it, plus I didn't have any idea where it was supposed to go because my sister's wedding stuff still wasn't completely gone.

Finally, I woke up.  I'm glad the last bit of the dream was about a half hour before the wedding, because had I dreamed all the way through my ceremony I think I would have freaked out.

I woke up and got ready for work as fast as possible, then got online to research DOC's.  I know I can do this myself, and with careful planning and early conversations with everyone involved, I won't even need to be a bridezilla or spend my whole day making sure that things are getting done, etc.  But still, in a panic I contacted a few DOCs and I cannot believe how much freaking money they want to coordinate one day.  I'm not interested in wedding planning or even someone being there to help me book vendors.  I wanted someone to be at the rehearsal & ceremony to tell us when to walk down the aisle.  I wanted someone to make sure the cocktail hour was smoothe, the musicians & DJ knew where to set up, the caterers arrived & set up, the cake guy told where to go, etc.  Just basically making sure things got done so I didn't have to.  They wanted upwards of $1200 for that crap!  I'm not even paying my stinkin' DJ that much!!!  That is insane!!  So I'm glad I found my confidence again because there's no way our budget has enough "wiggle room" to squeeze that craziness in!